sucks

i dont know why it can be happened. surely, i feel so guilty. it was really torturing me!! baby, just open your heart, and get down your ego. please start it first, dont make me waiting so long :( eventough, you never ever can't love myself.
God, give me the best way out. if he isn't love me anymore, show it! then i can leave him roomyly. but if otherwise, please get down his ego, open his eyes, and please make this fuckin story better :")
dear, i know im wrong, but honestly, i dont like you snap at me like that!!! as we know, that woman is want to be understood. but you never realized!
now, i feel so guilty, but i have to much dignity to call you first! if you sent me txt first , altough its without romantic word, i'll respond it well! im promise!
now, i miss you so much!!!!!!! eventough you don't feel lke what i feel, i dont care!
i just miss you, and thats so really really torture!!
and i dont know why i cant cry so far. but today, the defense collapsed! i cried, but i held it up as well as i can!
there are too much tears feel down if i remembered you.
baby, please come back to me. im so sorry, honestly i miss you soo much!! :")